He Loves Her In Private, She Loves Him Out Loud

 In her desperation to prove a point, she ran to a love that's more accepted simply based on gender roles.

She passed up on the one who wanted her to see that's she's a queen and not a bitch, a bad bitch.

She ran to a cheater, dealer, who calls women bitches and hoes but ,it's ok if she's his bitch even though, several others seem to claim that same title with him.
 She will keep giving him chances because she loves him and he's a man and men will be men, so it hurts to know he messes with other women but she loves him.

He's a man so her  family and friends will accept him. It's the societal norm... she won't ever have to question her sexuality with him and she won't have to explain anything to them.

Yea he's a cheater and a dealer but the sex is good. The sex is good. He's a bad boy, but she sees good in him. She will be the one to change him.

Plus, in a ways she knows she's paying for past sins, messing with other men before him who she knew were in relationships and such..

He doesn't celebrate her. He hides her. She brags about him. She cooks for him. She'll do anything for him. He hides her. She loves him. He plays her. She loves him. He sexes her. He loves her in private. She loves him out loud. He hides her.

It's not that he's private; it's that there's other women. He lies to her but she loves him....even though...